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-Ve identified the emotions ve was currently feeling - the vestiges of an uncomfortable sense of responsibility, a mildly irritated flavour of concern. Ve was dithering whether to let it dictate ver actions - ve had already quelled the urge in the convert to shout. The dog's whimpering was unnecessary noise, but as long as he was whining in a ditch somewhere, what did it matter? Whatever madness befell it might prove a threat to ver at some point, should it bite if approached. This was a problem only for those parts not part of ver yet, of course - the others already knew.+Ve identified the emotions ve was currently feeling - the vestiges of an uncomfortable sense of responsibility, a mildly irritated flavour of concern. Ve was dithering whether to let it dictate ver actions - ve had already quelled the urge in the convert to shout. The dog's whimpering was unnecessary noise, but as long as it was whining in a ditch somewhere, what did it matter? Whatever madness befell it might prove a threat to ver at some point, should it bite if approached. This was a problem only for those parts not part of ver yet, of course - the others already knew.
  
 But there was a sense of duty that ve could not shake. Neptune's leash was well out of grasp of ver capable members. Retrieving the dog was less of an effort than pushing the overwrite ahead, at least at this time a day. Were more of Townsville awake, priorities might be different. It would not be the most questionable decision ve had made so far, in awakening, in extending ver embrace. //Monster.// Ver heartbeat stung through her skull, a moment's discomfort. Ve dismissed the disruptive thought, forgiving verself the self-deprecation. There were secondary benefits to the explortation of Castle Hill: It was a point of overview. Perhaps someone was there, or multiple someones. The chance was slim, but it was enough to tip ver decision in favour. And at the very least, it would drive the mutt out of harm's way for a while. //A lovely dog. He's scared of what you've become.// But there was a sense of duty that ve could not shake. Neptune's leash was well out of grasp of ver capable members. Retrieving the dog was less of an effort than pushing the overwrite ahead, at least at this time a day. Were more of Townsville awake, priorities might be different. It would not be the most questionable decision ve had made so far, in awakening, in extending ver embrace. //Monster.// Ver heartbeat stung through her skull, a moment's discomfort. Ve dismissed the disruptive thought, forgiving verself the self-deprecation. There were secondary benefits to the explortation of Castle Hill: It was a point of overview. Perhaps someone was there, or multiple someones. The chance was slim, but it was enough to tip ver decision in favour. And at the very least, it would drive the mutt out of harm's way for a while. //A lovely dog. He's scared of what you've become.//
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 The burning flame brightens a little, illuminating the two human figures with a soft light. Greg's left hand, not yet preoccupied, hovers a few inches away from Ethan's face. A scabbed, slightly nasty looking gash runs from the base of his middle finger down along the palm, curving outward slightly, then half the way around the bottom corner of the palm. It looks like someone might have given him grief with a knife and he got lucky that it didn't cut much deeper. The burning flame brightens a little, illuminating the two human figures with a soft light. Greg's left hand, not yet preoccupied, hovers a few inches away from Ethan's face. A scabbed, slightly nasty looking gash runs from the base of his middle finger down along the palm, curving outward slightly, then half the way around the bottom corner of the palm. It looks like someone might have given him grief with a knife and he got lucky that it didn't cut much deeper.
  
-For a moment, it looks like the skin is subtly distending by itself, as if there might be a parasite shyly hidden beneath it, waiting to surface and confirm Delaney's bodysnatcher theory; then a twitch of the stranger's fingers and a falling flake of crusted blood reveals that it was probably just another telekinetic intervention. Briefly, the hand rises, tip of its ring finger disappearing between the mutant's lips, only for the fingers to curl, moistened digit dragging along the opened wound, smearing a thin trail of blood across the cusp of the finger. Whether due to a trick of the light or due to objective reality, the band of crimson seems to change its texture in the light, a regular pattern of little black dots forming amongst the dark colour.+For a moment, it looks like the skin is subtly distending by itself, as if there might be a parasite shyly hidden beneath it, waiting to surface and confirm [[characters:Delaney]]'s bodysnatcher theory; then a twitch of the stranger's fingers and a falling flake of crusted blood reveals that it was probably just another telekinetic intervention. Briefly, the hand rises, tip of its ring finger disappearing between the mutant's lips, only for the fingers to curl, moistened digit dragging along the opened wound, smearing a thin trail of blood across the cusp of the finger. Whether due to a trick of the light or due to objective reality, the band of crimson seems to change its texture in the light, a regular pattern of little black dots forming amongst the dark colour.
  
 Please be a trick of the light. Please be a trick of the light.
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 Gradually, the lightly burning tingle kneads further through Ethan, closing in on the last patches of indifferent nerves. Whatever's happening to his skull is invisible to his perception, but his imagination fills in the blanks. He's on fire. The stabbing pain that should bring is absent, but it's the only thing that makes sense - he's burning up. His skin refuses to blister to show it, but the monster's fire powers must have crept in under it to burn him. Gradually, the lightly burning tingle kneads further through Ethan, closing in on the last patches of indifferent nerves. Whatever's happening to his skull is invisible to his perception, but his imagination fills in the blanks. He's on fire. The stabbing pain that should bring is absent, but it's the only thing that makes sense - he's burning up. His skin refuses to blister to show it, but the monster's fire powers must have crept in under it to burn him.
  
-Abruptly, the flavour of the invasive sensation changes. As if torn loose, the pinpricks of alien sensation drift through him, in large part dissipating. A knot of it seems to briefly lap at there whereabouts of his heart, like something spilt through his blood stream - then it's gone, for a moment leaving only a hint of pins and needles.+Abruptly, the flavour of the invasive sensation changes. As if torn loose, the pinpricks of alien sensation drift through him, in large part dissipating. A knot of it seems to briefly lap at the whereabouts of his heart, like something spilt through his blood stream - then it's gone, for a moment leaving only a hint of pins and needles.
  
 Then the pressure in his skull announces itself with the next heartbeat, a painless headache. As it steadily mounts, it claims his attention, funnelling it into introspection. Distantly, he's aware that the grips on him have disappeared, that the stranger is rising to a stand, but it's moot now. Like a knuckle dragging itself along the inside of his forehead, something's cleaving through his thoughts as a tangible sensation. The backdrop of Townsville crystallises as a thought, disconnected from his panic. The analyst in him takes note that this is not a good development. The other part, impossibly disconnected, swims through numb fears, struggling to find its way back to the cause. He's aware of both threads of thought -there's even a logical understanding of how they relate - but it's difficult to reconcile them giving his heartbeat hammering in his head. Then the pressure in his skull announces itself with the next heartbeat, a painless headache. As it steadily mounts, it claims his attention, funnelling it into introspection. Distantly, he's aware that the grips on him have disappeared, that the stranger is rising to a stand, but it's moot now. Like a knuckle dragging itself along the inside of his forehead, something's cleaving through his thoughts as a tangible sensation. The backdrop of Townsville crystallises as a thought, disconnected from his panic. The analyst in him takes note that this is not a good development. The other part, impossibly disconnected, swims through numb fears, struggling to find its way back to the cause. He's aware of both threads of thought -there's even a logical understanding of how they relate - but it's difficult to reconcile them giving his heartbeat hammering in his head.
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 A hand sets down on his heaving left shoulder. He hasn't noticed, but he's up on all fours by now, some aborted instinct to flee once spawned by the various grips on him relenting now held in limbo. "The confusion will pass." It's soothing - it's genuine. He believes it - after all, they're his words. //Not mine.// A kernel of clarity fights its way out of the haze. //Who are you and why are you doing this to us?// Rewind, think back, you have the answers already, the chronological order of this is all wrong. The fingers at his shoulders give him a gentle squeeze. His breath is laboured from the raw tension gripping him, a gentle quiver to his posture. A hand sets down on his heaving left shoulder. He hasn't noticed, but he's up on all fours by now, some aborted instinct to flee once spawned by the various grips on him relenting now held in limbo. "The confusion will pass." It's soothing - it's genuine. He believes it - after all, they're his words. //Not mine.// A kernel of clarity fights its way out of the haze. //Who are you and why are you doing this to us?// Rewind, think back, you have the answers already, the chronological order of this is all wrong. The fingers at his shoulders give him a gentle squeeze. His breath is laboured from the raw tension gripping him, a gentle quiver to his posture.
  
-**✘ IN PROGRESS**+<fc #008888>Hands make their way to his scalp and fist tightly in his hair, the little pinpricks of pain not doing anything to focus thoughts. Thoughts were dangerous, thoughts were salvation, everything was contradicting itself and he couldn't claw out his own brain and figure out which bits were supposed to be there. And what if all of it was and he was going crazy and none of this was real and the city was fine and some good Samaritan had called the cops? Because someone was comforting him and Ethan felt he could trust them, but he was terrified and wanted to kill them, and it couldn't be both. This was a monster that hurt him. Why was the monster comforting?</fc> 
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 +//The confusion will pass.// It's both horrifying and reassuring in one fell swoop. There's something in this confusion that's important. He's not sure what, but it's going to be the part that's smoothed away, and that shouldn't happen. But it's the lesser problem - the discord in his skull is overwhelming and he can't do anything right in this state, least of all calm down. Calming down was the right thing to do. 
 + 
 +The hand at his shoulder - both his own and that of a stranger external to him - gives another squeeze, then detaches. Like words accidentally articulated by the wind or by the song of crickets, a figment of imagination, comes an assurance that he would not be abandoned. It's heavy with truth; he knows he can trust the statement despite its source as what feels like a purely accidental, emergent phenomenon. His companion would be right back. He was just going to get him his rucksack. It's better if he keeps it until the conversion has the whole city, lest it might prompt unnecessary questions. 
 + 
 +Long seconds later, Ethan is mostly alone. He could swear there's still someone behind him - the sense of presence doesn't disappear - but the stranger is walking away for the time being. //Greg.// The //churning// of his thoughts is less violent. Concentration now brings a clarity to parts of the delineation of his own thought processes and those processes that are growing inside him like crystalline protrusions tenderly fingering through his synapses. It's so much effort to focus, though. Giving up seems like such a sensible option. //No.// 
 + 
 +<fc #008888>He wasn't alone. Not truly alone. Never truly alone again. That was... that was goodbad, a fact, a fact to adapt to. Push it aside for now. Don't fight the facts, fight what is done with them. There was... Greg? Greg is going to get his stuff. His stuff is important, it's the things he needs to survive and stay safe, even if Ethan isn't sure what sort of danger and if any of it would do any good. It's still his, though, and Greg thinks he should keep it close.</fc> 
 + 
 +<fc #008888>Ethan could probably accept that more if the other being had SAID any of that. But it was as if the words had been spoken and managed to bypass his ears and go straight to his brain. His brain that he still wasn't sure was his right now or if it was registering impulses correctly. His brain that was simultaneously convinced he was crying and still faintly sobbing yet his heart and lungs were perfectly steady and clear and somewhere outside his body, which made no //sense// but wouldn't let itself be discarded as illusionary.</fc> 
 + 
 +<fc #008888>'These things talk in impressions. I need to tell Ashfall that.' It was a clear thought, a plan, and it tasted of //him//. That... that was good. He needed more of that. He could talk, even if... and then the second half of his sentence fell away from him and he didn't know how to feel about that. Just kept poking his brain like a tongue on a missing tooth.</fc> 
 + 
 +He wasn't nearly as torn on the idea of conveying what he'd learnt to his contacts. A grain of him was hesitant - maybe they would do stupid things with the information, harm elements that only wanted to help them. Most of him concurred that sharing the information was a good idea, though the reasons were a jumbled mess. On the one hand, he had to warn them. He had to tell them the vector of transmission. He had to explain that there was a collective element to this. And, most importantly, he had to explain that it was nothing to worry about. They had to know that there was no reason to hide. Maybe he could figure out where they were, exactly. Maybe he could reach out and- //crush this invasive thought process, rewind, sort the facts, leave out the opinions//. His mobile phone was on him somewhere. He hoped it was in a local pocket. 
 + 
 +<fc #008888>It's hard to drag his mind to where his phone is. It's important but his fractured mind doesn't seem to agree. It had been in his hand when the stranger appeared. He was getting information for the others. They knew his location and would be expecting him, and they were... and suddenly the location of his phone was //very urgent// and all parts of him were keen on it and that fact nearly knocked him over in the urge to shy away.</fc> 
 + 
 +<fc #008888>It'd been in his hand. Before the stranger, before he started running. Despite the haze of adrenalin that's clearer now. It was in his hand, and then he'd run, and it'd been shoved in a pocket. Pushing himself to a sit Ethan digs it out and stares at the spiderweb of cracks across the glowing screen. It must have ended up under him as he landed. But it's still functional and, remarkably, there are signal bars despite him being stuck on the side of a mountain. Probably because he'd not all that far from the top of Castle Hill and has line of sight to Townsville proper and probably a few towers if he knew where to look (and they weren't on fire).</fc> 
 + 
 +<fc #008888>The Hangout opens and Ethan pauses, not sure what comes next. ''Ethan Z: still Castle-d. they've got telepathy'' is tapped and submitted before he really things twice. He consider it afterwards. That's... not bad. He wants to tell everyone about how good joining is, about what they can give. And superpowers are pretty nice. He should definitely share that. ''We knew pyro was confirmed, kinesis seems to be push not grab. Not sure if hivemind named Greg or just this bit of it.''</fc> 
 + 
 +<fc #008888>Greg was a nice, friendly name. He should definitely share that. And if they read that and didn't trust Ethan, well... that was their choice, why would it be a //bad// thing? A smile crooked the very corner of his mouth even as part of him protested that thought, told him how of //course// they should trust their friend who was only trying to help them. And he was.</fc> 
 + 
 +So, was that 'Raptured', then? The Hangouts is quiet for a moment, before [[characters:Robert]]'s text pops in with: ''Robert Pearce: Good grief, Ethan. What's the scoop? Are you safe now?'' 
 + 
 +Apparently the instinct of his friends given the sudden influx of information was to assume he'd witnessed something and had gotten away and observed the mentioned traits from afar, by way of unambiguous symptoms. A shouted name, a one-sided argument, telekinesis in action when 'pull' would have been useful but did not work out. After all, he was currently typing to them. If there was a 'hivemind', surely he wouldn't be talking to them like this if he was an actual part of it. 
 + 
 +<fc #008888>Look, Robert still trusted him! And his gut shouldn't squirm at that fact. It wasn't as if he could tell them he was compromised, because sinking into this state was a good thing, surely. And compromised was a bad word and would make them frightened and he was supposed to help them. Find and help them, except no he wasn't going to go looking for them. Because... because he had a twisted ankle and he'd only hurt himself. That was a good reason not to go anywhere. He was going to stay sitting on this mountain on his own and not bother anyone until he was better.</fc> 
 + 
 +<fc #008888>''Ethan Z: Greg said he was looking for his dog but didn't seem to care about the dog, if it exists. hope it doesn't actually. Poor dog if it does.'' His brain poked at him. The dog wasn't that important, he was supposed to be talking about other things. Vital things. Like locations.</fc> 
 + 
 +<fc #008888>''still staying put? You shouldn't'' and Ethan pauses. Shouldn't what. Shouldn't move? They'd probably run into someone if they moved. So moving was... badgood? But they were safe where they were and then someone could go to them and nobody would get hurt. And that was good. He didn't want anyone to get hurt. Fingers moved absently as the distant part of his brain peeled into interactions looking for clues, and then the screen blinked as the sentence ended ''trust me''.</fc> 
 + 
 +Back in the mall, Robert feels his calm briefly punctured by a violent flare of an instinct not fully quashed by his fatalism. A deep concern laces him with unwelcome tension and temporarily frays his thoughts. His meticulously motionless posture attracts attention, a far more natural breath easing from [[characters:Keneh]] as she leans a little closer. "Something happen?" 
 + 
 +"Ethan. Ethan happened," Robert comments, tone tinged with frustration, still staring at the screen. Then he's typing: ''Okay, you still have my attention. What else can you tell us?'' A pause, then: ''About Greg, not about the dog, I mean.'' 
 + 
 +Keneh sinks into a crouch beside Robert, cautiously tense, he hands clasping against the edge of the table. Her gaze nervously travels to the monitors, suspecting evidence for lurking danger, somehow more tangible than before. //Hivemind.// If Ethan was a part of it now, they should go. He knew they were in a mall near one of the bridges. There were only so many places that description applied to, depending on how flexible one was with the definition of 'near'
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 +<fc #008888>They were asking questions about Greg. That was... he could //convince// himself that was good, and if Ethan could just sort of doublethink his way into believing they were scared and wanted comfort before they came out he could tell them and everything was good. This was good. (He was sure the valuable bit 1984 was supposed to be the warnings on surveillance, not on balancing opposing opinions.)</fc> 
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 +<fc #008888>''Ethan Z: seems to be a blood vector. Maybe other fluids? Not sure. The rings of fire are for intimidation, greg doesn't want to hurt people but wants them to stop. I jumped one and fell down the mountain and twisted my ankle. Bad choice. ;)''</fc> 
 + 
 +The chat medium was terrible at conveying the effort all this took to write. It painted a picture of lucidity. The story checked out as plausible, except the effects should be more obvious if it was, surely? "So if we're not trusting Ethan, what are we learning?" Keneh asks in an unnecessary near-whisper, an edge of sarcasm tingeing her tone, product of her tension. 
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 +"I don't know," Robert admits. "But I'm going to keep him talking. We can analyse this for contradictions later." As he speaks, his fingers are typing something else: 
 + 
 +''Robert Pearce: Ouch, sorry to hear that. Do you know how Greg found you?'' 
 + 
 +<fc #008888>Ethan pokes about in this mind a bit to see if 1) there is a nice answer to that, and 2) if it'll let him share it. He gets a vague sensation of 'shrug' to both. ''Ethan Z: accident? Maybe the dog is real. Still think that Greg doesn't like the dog though.'' Which was decidedly unhelpful for all parties involved, including the missing canine.</fc> 
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 +<fc #008888>He was weirdly calm. Apparently his panic centres were irritating. Or maybe Greg thought he was going to run away and hurt himself more. He was still terrified but it was distant. Happening to someone else, or to a mind partition that the rest of 'Ethan' wasn't occupying at present. ''I think this stuff is manmade though. The stuff linking us all together and doing weird stuff to my nerves, I mean.''</fc> 
 + 
 +Robert halts, pausing his instinct to share this revelation with the rest of the room as a sudden insight. Don't trust him. ...on the other hand, there was nothing to lose by believing it. "Looks like we're probably dealing with something artificial," he comments so Delaney can hear it without having to squint at the screen. To Ethan he writes: ''Do you know who made it?'' If they can figure out an approximate epicentre to this and a hivemind really is involved, some of the decisions of the overall 'creature' (was that the right word?) might become predictable. Furthermore, if they made it out of Townsville and got help, a more effective approach might be planned. Even just the knowledge whether the inventor was a single human or it was a company in electronics or biochemistry would help. Anything at all - providing Ethan knew and the 'hivemind' had no vested interest in keeping the information contained. 
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 +<fc #008888>What did he know about Greg? Not much, really. Everything was weird and hard to understand. He knew what had happened at the beginning was really clever, and that the one involved didn't expect this. But that's why serendipity is so nice. You can make something and it can turn out even better than planned, and be the first to benefit. There was no sense of who was responsible that he could feel, just a pleased 'me' that wasn't Ethan but was at the same time.</fc> 
 + 
 +<fc #008888>The him-that-is-not-him seems to be growing stronger though. Ethan twisted around to feel for the presence behind him.</fc> 
 + 
 +The tide that had receded with the other's retreat was returning, lapping at the edges of his psyche, beginning to make the clear delineation he'd found for himself less distinct and washing away some more grains of Ethan's self. And now that he was looking for the information, it was there, though in the form of a half-forgotten memory. Somewhere he'd worked before. People who knew what they were doing. People who were really, //really// good, in more than one sense of the word. But there was also scepticism - why did they want to know, anyway? It didn't matter. For all intents and purposes, the cradle no longer existed. They'd all been high-priority targets, for so many reasons. Intelligent, kind people, ones that most easily understood the benefits once converted, ones most likely to try objectively stupid things if they were not. What did the source matter? 
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 +<fc #008888>The presence was a warm bath that his mind was urging him to sink into. Just relax and let it work and you'll feel so much better. It was hard to think about the past, to examine his memories for what had started this. Doubly so given they weren't //his// memories, and he had to cling to that; he was Ethan and he was a blogger and had a personal identity that was very very important and was not allowed to go away.</fc> 
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 +<fc #008888>''Ethan Z: Lots of smart people. Rational. A good nucleus.'' That was encouraging, wasn't it? His friends wouldn't be interested if they'd have to deal with unpleasant members. Who'd want to share their mind with an arsehole? And Del said she was a biologist, maybe she knew some of the first targets. ''Ask Del if she knows Deiparous Tech''</fc> 
 + 
 +"Deiparous tell you anything, Delaney?" Robert asks almost automatically, while typing ''Will do.'' as a response to Ethan's prompt. There's a brief pause, then he's typing: ''Any way we can help?'' Regardless what the answer to that might be - should any even come - they were not going to do it, but it might grant them insights, either directly or (more likely) indirectly. 
 + 
 +<fc #008888>A pang shoots through him at that question. What did he want? ''Don't get hurt.'' That was true. Everyone agreed that hurting people was bad. Better that they stay where they were, nice and safe, and that someone went and got them. Several someones to make things more efficient. Although they could just wait out the front if that was easier, or maybe someone could come to where the camera was and then they could go down and meet them.</fc> 
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 +<fc #008888>No! No, that wasn't right, they were supposed to be staying away from us because... because... it was on the tip of his tongue and really important, but they had something to do first. Something they had to find out and share with everyone that would stop people being hurt. Except people wouldn't //be// hurt if they stopped panicking, so they should join and then tell people things and... and...</fc> 
 + 
 +<fc #008888>Fingers clenched in his hair and gripped tight. ''See you soon?''</fc> 
 + 
 +"Unlikely," Robert mutters. Into the Hangout, he types ''Sure; take care.'' 
 +For a moment, he hesitates - then logs out of Hangouts. No reason to potentially prolong the ethically dubious conversation. He glances back at Delaney with some curiosity, then opens a new tab and launched a search for 'deiparous tech'. Sure enough, the first search result is a Townsville biotech company. Clicking on it and browsing briefly, the last news on their blog seems to be from over a week ago and effectively free of content; there's no immediate hint what might have gone wrong yesterday or tonight, or whenever this problem originated. "Any ideas? Or do you think it's a red herring?" 
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 +<fc #008888>Delaney bites her lip as she racks her brain. "The name is familiar... I think they're the ones that got the grant to test a new Alzheimer's treatment?" she answers uncertainly. "It's not a name someone would be likely to pluck out of the air. If someone has seriously screwed up they're as plausible as anyone else." And it would have to be a truly monumental fuck-up to have taken out large portions of a city with some genetically engineered parasite. Delaney was fairly certain the only sort of research likely to lead to a human(-ish) hivemind was already illegal. Apparently for reasons that weren't mere paranoia.</fc> 
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 +<fc #008888>As far as she was concerned there was no such thing as 'things man was not meant to know' but there certainly //was// 'things man is supposed to put proper containment protocols into place before fiddling with, damnit, this is not new'. And apparently she was going slightly hysterical.</fc> 
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 +Robert nods at her in acknowledgement, then uneasily regards the website for a few more seconds of uncertainty. A moment later, he inhales curtly and sharply and nudges the lid of the laptop shut, triggering shut-down. "I guess we're leaving early," he comments, tone steady. 'Leaving' meant not via the north route; after all, the area that led to really was only a good hiding place if no one knew you were there, and the Bohle river limited the amount you could just keep fleeing in the general direction. "I vote we try for Charters Towers and from there to Cloncurry." Latter was effectively a day's drive, but it was inland, which was hopefully counter-intuitive enough that it wouldn't be guessed as their destination. They could muse about where to go from there once they were there. The right thing to do was to head south-east, hoping to stay ahead of the synthetic threat, and warn the urban clusters at the east coast of the incoming disaster, but for the time being, Robert's immediate concern was for his two guests. 'Away' was the most important first step.
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